So the goal had been to leave by now, the goal had been to shove it all in his face and walk away. Each time I try I think about the next guy, what will his issue be, what strife and struggle will he bring me. I don't trust my boyfriend, I believe everytime he is away from me he is with another woman I don't think that's an accurate picture only because I know my boyfriends OCD side which doesn't allow him to spend that much time just with someone else while not getting important things accomplished.
I was supposed to catch him on a date this Sunday, I realized whether he goes or not does not matter if my response will not be to take care of it. Once you know this you can't unknow it, I can't just allow him to see me and then not react. If I see it and choose to ignore it then that is like a free pass to crazy land for both of us.
My decision...my church has an event at the same time has his scheduled date. Instead of wallowing in self pity and attempting to close something that I will not close I choose to be somewhere where I can actually make a difference.
Update...He never went on that date and in fact closed the dating account.
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